busy day

..and i still have time to blog. well, it seems that our purchase orders aren't pouring like the previous months and i'm scheduled to fetch dad at the airport later at early evening. my birthday's coming, enjoying the last few days of my year "in" the calendar.. wow. i'm turning 32. old, old, old... let me do some mathematics. if i'm not sterile, my soon-to-be-wife & i will be making our baby right after the wedding/reception ceremonies and we will be having our firstborn on MAY 2009. if luck gets to me, our firstborn and i will be having the same birthday. yey! cost-cutting double celebration! lol. i'll be 33 by then. when our firstborn turns 20, i'll be 53. wow. three years past the golden age. tsk, tsk.. that's why i envy the young fathers out there. i should be playing with my kids on physical games and still manage to win over them but the way i see it, it will not be the case. :(
oh well... let's live to the present.. speaking of birthdays and presents, this should be a pre-birthday post for me. i will not be giving my friends *eherm* and relatives (who actually read this blog) a hard time figuring out what i want for my birthday. don't worry, they're very much affordable you can even give me a dozen of each. LOL. and since its my year stepping out of the calendar numbers *ouch*, please, let this pass. :p

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(11:30pm edit... edit... hmm.. ok, i was indeed busy a while ago so as a result, i'm continuing the post just now.)

ok, here goes my list of likes, needs, and wants:

1. guapples - oh, i looove them! its usually my night food whenever i'm watching TV or a dvd title. i love those crunchy, big, less seeded ones. simple life, simple pleasures :)

2. Tobi (onion garlic) or Nagaraya (adobo, barbecue or regular) nuts - i go nuts over nuts.

3. Oishi caramel popcorn - simply because Jack N Jill stopped producing Nuts N Pops. darn!

4. Jughead Jones Double Digest - one product of those Archie's comics, Jughead is my most favorite character among them. witty & lazy. lol.

5. Alamat ng Gubat - the only Bob Ong book (as of to date) which i don't own. this can be a nice *ehem* birthday gift for me, although one kid is already asking me when my birthday is so she can give me the book as a gift. yeah, a kid... like, 13 years old. :p

6. Venetta polo - most accessible branch is located at Robinsons Galleria.

7. Kultura shirts - those with v-necks style and collar.

8. 1,000-peso worth of diesel oil - need i say more that i'm getting poorer each time i load diesel fuel with my Mitsubishi van? :(

9. a whole cake of Brazo de Mercedez - sa akin lang walang makikihati.

10. pork sinigang - i want it extra sour, in a big, big container so we may all share together my undisputed favorite dish...

ang babaw ng kaligayahan ko ano? so, ano na ang pledge mo? :p

i don't know

in a few hours, dad will be here... home. happy? i don't know. next plans? i don't know. my family's future? i don't know. wedding... it will come and pass. what's next? i don't know.

on being a leader

While being a leader may put a person on a pedestal status, one may think that it shouldn't be as easy as it sounds. And the "benefits" of being a leader in reality translates to being more responsible in everything you do.

It is true that a leader enjoys authority... but of course it all depends to your members: how they see you, how they value you as a leader, and how they consider that success of your leadership always depends on their cooperation.

Aside from being looked up to by little kids in the Childrens Worship Service as a Sunday School Teacher, I have been the church choir leader in our locale for many years now. I admit it isn't very easy leading a group where expectations from the other locale leadership and officers are always high. As a leader, I should be the first one to know everything about the choir, doctrines of the church, "troubleshooting" problems that arise, and i should possess more than one character against the number of my members in the group. I should be a good communicator. I must be the "strongest" individual in the group. I should know better. And the hardest part of all: leading by example--- all things I say must be all things I do. Why did I say that leading by example is the most difficult part of being a leader? Because i'm also human. I commit mistakes, I falter, I experience weakness, and I also cry. I'm not perfect, just as nobody is. I'm not righteous. But more important above all these, I've learned to acknowledge what God can do for me. He gave me humility to fulfill my divine duties, He provided me the words to utter before the members, He stretches His hands when I lead in prayers, and above all, He instilled in me LOVE to remain in this calling. THIS IS MY FAITH... and i thank God for everything.

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Related read: Difference between a leader and a manager

siya

...ang una kong naging idolo. maraming beses na ginabayan ako sa aking kabataan, pinagsasabihan, sinesermunan, pinagpapayuhan. siya ang aking kalaro noong nag-"migrate" kami sa bacolod city. tahimik na nilalang pero uber daldal--- parang contrast yata ano? siya ang isang tao na masasabi mong responsable... never leave things undone nor unattended until its done, 'ika (ko) nga. at di mo alam (ngayon marahil malalaman mo na pag nabasa mo ito) na isa ka sa mga tao na naging malaking impluwensya ko sa buhay at kung paano nahubog ang aking values (pagpapahalaga) sa maraming bagay. sinamahan ako nyan nung tumira ako sa Pampanga... uuwi mula sa klase/duty nya sa Maynila para lang masamahan ako sa bahay ng lolo at lola ko. wala lang akong matandaan na pagkakataon na nilibre ako nito. lagi yatang ako ang nanlilibre sa kanya. kapal no? pero ok lang. lab ko naman yan :) narito ang ilan sa maraming pangyayari sa buhay naming dalawa na hindi ko na yata malilimutan:

1. nag-away kami niyan noong grade three ako (siya third year high school na, patulan pa raw ang bata) --- habulan sa bahay at nang abutan niya ako, isang malakas na hagupit sa likod ko... di ko kinaya, nagsuka ako. marahil kinonsensya pagkatapos, pinatahan ako sa pag-iyak, pinunasan ng pawis, binihisan at pinaghanda ng meryenda. ayun. di ko na sinumbong kay daddy, nadala sa suhol.

2. grade 1 ako noon, first year high school naman sya, malakas ang ulan... bumaha sa campus ng school at yung dadaanan ko papuntang classroom eh mataas na ang tubig... hinatid nya ko sa classroom, kinarga ako para di ako magtampisaw sa baha. ayun, sya yung lublob ang mga paa sa tubig samantalang ako, tuyung-tuyo na nakapasok sa classroom. yan siya! idol!

3. eksena: sa loob ng elevator sa isang mall. kasama sa kwento: ako, siya, pamangkin ko, at isang mamang nakikisali (MN) sa usapan namin. kwento:

siya: ano kaya itong ibig sbihin ng "M" na kasunod ng 4th floor (tumutukoy sa mezzanine)?
ako: eh di "mas mataas"
MN: (ngiti-ngiti)
siya: eh ano naman itong "P" (tumutukoy sa penthouse)?
ako: eh di "pinakamataas"
MN: hehehe.. tama nga naman si mister nyo, misis.
ako: GRRR!
siya: naku, kapatid ko ho iyan. naku ayan, ang sama na ng tingin sa inyo... oh, nonoy halika na, kargahin mo muna 'tong pamangkin mo..
ako: GRRR!

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ilan lang yan sa mga tagpo na pinagsamahan namin na di ko malilimutan. gaano man siya kalayo ngayon, gaano man ka-busy, at gaano man katagal na di kami nagkikita, alam kong ako pa rin ang orihinal nyang "baby" (bukod syempre sa tatlo nyang chikiting at isang makulit na mister, hehehe)

para sa iyo, ate B, MALIGAYANG-MALIGAYANG KAARAWAN NG PAGSILANG! ang tanda na natin. hehehe...



labs yu! yakkk... kinikilabutan ako. hahaha!

10 Truths, 5 Lies (Troisième partie)

After doing this for the first time, and didn't get enough of it for the second time, i am now posting yet another set of ten truths and five lies about me. this time, i will not force anyone to comment and guess the five lies that are supposed to be among the 15 given statements. but feel free to do so. LOL. ok, here goes:

1. i have had a one-week love affair like Imelda Papin's Isang Linggong Pag-ibig.

2. i enjoyed sporting a semi-kalbo hairstyle once in my adult life (meaning not when i was still a hairless infant).

3. i caught hepatitis B in my high school years.

4. my worst bicycle accident was when i crashed into a slow-moving passenger jeepney in our province way back my grade school years.

5. i received my very first love letter when i was in grade six.

6. i was kicked out from class and was sent to the guidance office during my high school years due to lending my homework to my classmates who didn't make theirs.

7. i was sent out from the rehearsal room during our college choir practice due to a musical note i can not follow.

8. our class boarded a ship during our grade five field trip.

9. i've shook hands with former president Joseph Estrada in a press conference during my assignment at the Malacañang Press Corps.

10. i've annoyed a customer in a phone conversation after arguing about her impossible request from our company.

11. i've attended a court hearing as a witness.

12. first school i attended was University of Negros Occidental - Recoletos (UNO-R) in Bacolod City.

13. i bought (from my own savings) my sister her own mobile phone twice, on different times.

14. i received an indecent proposal from a bank client when i assisted in opening that client's safety deposit box when i was still working as a new accounts clerk.

15. i'm still a virgin.

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LOL. masyado bang give-away choice yung last number? hahaha!

photo feature stories

photos from my mobile which were already transfered to my images folder here in my desktop are now piled up waiting to be posted here on my blog together with their very own "story". well, here goes:

community service, school activities, beautification (label: taas-noo Pilipino)

just slightly uphill from our house, there is this wall that the local government and the subdivision officers put up to separate the shanties from our subdivision. most children living there, however, are studying in the public school located in our subdivision and before the school year ended, they had this project which amused me. out of their artistic talents, they were made to paint a single theme at the wall making it look like a freedom wall displaying young artistic talents that people will not fail to notice upon passing the street leading to the other neighboring subdivision:



photos above show the students who have participated in painting doing what they're good at while their family, supporters and friends observe them even under the scorching heat of the sun. a few days later, when i again passed by the street going to the neighboring subdivision, the sight of the wall was something to behold:



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of land usefulness (label: life's like that)

in my almost sixteen years of stay here in our subdivision, it is only now that i have seen palay being dried in this lot area where kids from the same public school holds their baseball practices. the vacant lot area is muddy on rainy days but can look like a desert during summer. the lot area as far as i know doesn't really have a rightful owner (if it belongs to the neighboring subdivision or if it is owned by the local government) but surely it isn't our subdivisions property. to be able to reach this area, one must have already passed by the wall (yes, the new "fredom wall" mentioned above) that separates our subdivision boundary to the said lots. the said open lot can be useful for kids who'd practice biking, kite-flying, or play agawang-base and other childhood "non-electronic" games. anyway, whoever owns these palay have made wise use of the lot area. if only we have more of these in the country, then we will not have to argue about rice shortage again and again.

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fall on summer? (label: huwaaat???)

when i drove home in the afternoon the other day, i have noticed that our street was yellowish. upon driving near a narra tree, i noticed that it was its flowers falling that makes the street yellow. together with the heat of the sun, the tree, its flowers, and the yellow-covered street gave a lively ambiance to the quiet afternoon in the neighborhood. nature's beauty:



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bookstore, sparks & piolo (label: books, surprise story)

after rounding the two major bookstores key branches a couple of weeks back and failing miserably to locate author nicholas sparks A Walk To Remember, Ayah have excitedly informed me the other day that she found a copy in Robinsons Galleria. After so many "lobbying", i was convinced to get her a copy and so we headed to my favorite mall last Friday to finally have one copy of the said book. it was actually the only stock left, neither in National Bookstore nor in Powerbooks but in the newest Bestsellers book store, an affiliate of the former. Upon seeing the store (funny how i didn't notice it when strolling around the mall) which is located at the 4th floor of Robinsons Galleria near Timezone (across movieworld)... can i just say, wow!


view from the main entrance


view from its second floor


and another amazing birds eye view

after happily having the book, ayah & i went to check out some other books upstairs and i was amused to see a lot of biography books that are not very usual. among these many biographies was a material for Piolo. Look who forgot the newly-purchased book in exchange for Piolo's biography:



ok.. so ayah asked the price of the book: paperback costs 700+ while hardbound (yes, it has a hardbound) costs 1K pesos. now she has something to spend for with her first salary at her new job. :p

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pamilyang pilipino, at home sa--- (label: taas-noo Pilipino, family)

where else?



yesterday, ayah's family and i had a nice stroll in the mall, bonding in a more favorable term. they purchased some clothings for ayah's dad and after a few rounds, we ended up having a snack at Jollibee. the busiest branch in the mall located at the ground floor, building B, proved to be a haven for most pinoy families. we took the courage to ask our seatmates to have their photo taken to be posted here in my blog. a typical Filipino family enjoying what the filipino bee offers: yums and spaghetti & sundaes:



the photos above show our seat mates in the crowded jollibee branch. the lolo was with her three grandchildren and was giving them a refreshing treat at the number one fastfood chain in the country. proudly pinoy! it's always very nice seeing filipino families together enjoying simple things in life. no money can ever buy that--- filipino culture and values: simply, priceless.

hodgepodge

i've been sleeping on DVD titles lately, waking up in the middle of dawn just to see that the DVD has replayed the film. most of these titles that i watch should have been scaring me and make me stay awake the whole evening but no, they aren't really that scary. to name a few, i have watched and fell asleep watching shutter, txt, white lady, shake rattle & roll 2K, 'wag kang lilingon, and other supposed-to-be scary films. so, the other day, i switched back to reviewing and mastering watching sci-fi-slash-natural-science-disaster movies such as perfect storm, twister, the day after tomorrow, deep impact, volcano, armageddon, and my all-time favorite movie, ID4. it sure beats the solitude at home. but then again, i need to get new dvd or vcd titles. you can almost give me an exam on these movies and i'm pretty sure i can answer most if not all the questions that'll be asked. :p

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i was feeling down these past few days and discussing it with ayah has been a big relief on my part. having someone who understands and listens to your whining is a major help. they help you see through your concerns, get through it and overcome it. they make you realize that it's not the end of the world like the one in this photo ---> (click this link to view photo. WARNING: gory image) [too bad, frogs don't have nine lives as the cats do. poor froggy]. they hope with you that there's always a rainbow after the rain. ayah sure knows how to make me happy. she never leaves me. even if most of the times she makes fun of me and regard me as a clown i still feel blessed having her

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the other day we were roving around the two major bookstores in the metropolis looking for the out-of-stock A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. then the following day, while having very limited "resources" (read: MONEY), ayah called the office telling me she doesn't have fare going back home from her job interview (or job offer signing) since she bought the book of Sparks which she excitedly found in National Bookstore, Robinsons Galleria branch. but yes, she was only kidding me, but *sigh* i was already very furious. i told her to take a cab going to my office but she was hesitant knowing that i was very mad but nonetheless gave in. she patiently waited for my work off then we strolled along libis area (while waiting for the number coding to be suspended) and both of us dreamed of purchasing this new Asian car being marketed in the country today--- chery(?)

ok... dream on.

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edit: 10:07 am, opis.

hanep 'tong si kid. naa-access ang blogger na naka-block ng firewall. panis!

samu't-sari

martes. alas tres. nagising ako. ang init kase. nakatulog pala ako kagabi sa sofa pagkatapos makipag-usap kay ayah sa telepono. bukas pa ang mga ilaw sa kusina at sa dining room. gayundin sa kwarto na dapat tutulugan ko. tsk, tsk... di ko naman sinasadyang maging si Asiong Aksaya at katunayan kapag natutulog ay gusto ko na nakapatay lahat ng ilaw maliban sa labas ng bahay na kinakailangang nakabukas.

kagabi ay tumirik ang minamaneho kong Ford Escape. kasakay ko si Ayah at ang kanyang mga magulang. mabuti na lamang at nangyari iyon sa may bandang junction na at katapat namin ang isang battery shop na kung saan eksaktong nakita ang naging "sakit" ng sasakyan. dead battery. diskargado. una nang nagpahiwatig ito nang pumitik ang makina, sabay patay ng cd player at umilaw ang battery indicator sa may dashboard. wow. first time kong masiraan sa isang AT na sasakyan. isa lang masasabi ko: mas sanay pa rin ako na masiraan sa manual transmission. mas madaling itulak. tinawagan ko si itay para lang ipaalám sa kanya ang nangyari sa mahal nyang sasakyan. nang sabihin kong alternator ang problema, iminungkahi nyang igarahe ko muna ang sasakyan hanggang pagdating nya sa katapusan. mahal daw kase ang pyesa ng Ford. at mas mabuti kung sa mismong Ford car center ito dadalhin. mmmm... ok.

nung linggo ay birthday ni untong. salamat sa late dinner treat! na-touch naman kami ni ayah at kami lang yatang dalawa ang taga-ibang lokal na naimbitahan sa kainan. siguro ay dahil sa kakakulit namin sa text. hehehe..

nung saberdey, muli akong nakabalik sa aking alma mater para pumirma sa attendance sa seminar ng ukol sa summer kindergarten program, at gayundin makuha na rin ang matagal ko nang ni-request na TOR. andaming tao sa school. karamihan sa naroon ay nag-aasikaso para sa summer classes. habang nakapila ako sa cashier window, walang pinakamagandang gawin para hindi mainip kundi ang magbalik-tanaw muli sa panahong kami pa ang mga mag-aaral sa kinaroroonang paaralan. dun ko naisip na ang estudyante, pinaka-alalahanin nya lang ay ang kanyang pag-aaral. at kung paano matataasan ng allowance mula sa kung sino man ang nagpapaaral sa kanya. nag-uusap yung dalawang katabi ko sa pila, yung isa nakakuha ng full load sa summer, yung isa kulang ng tatlong units. hindi raw sya nakapag-advance nung isang subject dahil naubusan na sya ng schedule. sa ganang akin, pag magsa-summer din lang ay pinakamabuti nang mag-full load para hindi masayang ang pamasahe, allowance at oras. maraming pwedeng gawin pag summer pero kung nakapagdesisyon ang isang mag-aaral na mag-aral sa summer, back subject man o advanced, paghusayan na niya ito. at ngayon nasasabi ko na lagi na hindi biro-biro ang pagpapaaral. sa taas ba naman ng tuition fee. at sa lalong mas magastos na allowance lingguhan o araw-araw. makukuba talaga ang nagpapa-aral. pag nagtrabaho na ang mga estudyanteng ito, saka nila lubusang mauunawaaan na mas mahalagang gumising nang maaga para huwag mahuli sa trabaho (at makaltasan ng sahod), kaysa pumasok kunyari sa paaralan at dumiretso lang naman sa computer shop para mag online gaming. sayang. sayang. hindi naibabalik ang panahon. kung meron mang masaklap na pangyayari sa kasalukuyan ay ang pagsisisi sa nakaraan.

nung college ako, pinangarap kong makapag-part time job sa jollibee. wala lang. para lang maranasan ang paghahanap-buhay pero dahil nga ang mga nalalabi kong taon noon sa kolehiyo ay ginugol ko sa pagsa-summer classes, hindi ko na naranasan ang maging crew sa isang fastfood chain. oh well. ganyan daw talaga ang buhay--- hindi lahat ng gusto mo ay makukuha mo. saka payo rin ng itay ko, hangga't kaya ng nagpapa-aral sa iyo, mag-aral ka na lang muna nang mabuti. kung nakapagdesisyon ka naman na huwag mag summer classes, lasapin mo ang sarap ng bakasyon. hmm... may punto.

iba na ang mundo ng isang nagtatrabaho. wala na ang barkadang araw-araw at halos oras-oras mong kasangga sa paggawa ng projects, kahiraman ng notes at assignments, kakopyahan sa exams at kasama sa lahat ng aktibidad sa loob at labas ng paaralan. sa pagtatrabaho ay natututo kang maging independent. kanya-kanyang diskarte, kanya-kanya nang oras. bagaman hindi naman lubusang nawawala ang mga kaibigan, iba pa rin ang mundo sa paaralan at ang mundo ng mga propesyunal. totoong buhay na ito. sariling kayod para sa sariling gugulin. kung hindi ka marunong dumiskarte, magiging isang kayod isang tuka ang buhay mo. kaya kailangan ding matutong mag-impok. sabi nga ng mga langgam, "para sa panahon ng tag-ulan." dyahe naman kung iaasa pa sa magulang ang gastusin gayung may sarili ka nang pinagkakakitaan, di ba? ang buhay. habang tumatagal, parang mas lalo mong gustong bumalik sa simpleng kabataan. yun nga lang. hindi na pwede. kaya dapat ay naging matalino ka sa kabataan mo. para kapag nagbalik-tanaw ka, hindi ka mahihiya sa sarili mo at masasabi mong marami ka nang narating kahit bata ka pa lamang.

CONGRATULATIONS at good luck sa mga bagong nagsipagtapos! Congratulations din sa lahat ng mga magulang na nagsikap magpa-aral para lamang mabigyan ng disenteng edukasyon ang mga anak. :)

mahaba ang araw ko

kani-kanina lang nasambit ko kay Ayah, "...eto ang tandaan mo: no job is perfect." ipinaliwanag ko sa kanya na kahit saang kumpanya magtrabaho ang isang tao, kahit pa pinakamimithi niyang pasukan, darating pa rin ang pagkakataon na may masasabi at masasabi siya laban dito. maaaring iba't-ibang aspeto ng inirereklamo pero gayunpaman, negatibo pa rin ang dating.

panay ang buntong-hininga ko kanina sa opisina dahil sa sunud-sunod na problemang may kinalaman sa operasyon ng kumpanya. ayos sana kung lahat ng inasikaso ko ay bunga ng nasasakop kong trabaho pero minsan, o kadalasan ang nakakabagot ay yung hindi ko sakop na trabaho at kapag may kapalpakang nangyari ay ako ang pangunahing umeeksena para ayusin ito. hindi ko ugaling manisi ng tao kung sino ang dapat managot sa ganito at ganoon bagama't minsan ay naidadaing ko ito sa mga kasamahan. pero sa panahong nakikipag-usap ako sa mga kinauukulan na may kaugnayan sa naging suliranin, mas gugustuhin kong pag-ukulan ng panahon ang paghanap ng solusyon kaysa ang paghanap ng kung sino ba ang dapat na sisihin sa mga nangyari. nangyari na eh. ano pa bang maggawa natin kundi pag-ukulan ng panahon ang susunod na nararapat gawin sa ikaaaayos ng lahat, di ba?

ang nangyari kanina ay isa na namang classic. tila gusto ng mga tao na paaminin ako sa isang pananagutan na hindi ko naman tuwirang responsibilidad. ok, nandun na tayo, ako ang senior sa opisina pero baka nalimutan din nila na hati-hati ang aming pananagutan at sa ginagawa ko ay hindi ko naman sila inaabala pa? kung pati gawain nila ay ako ang tututok, magrereklamo na naman ako na kulang ang ipinapa-sweldo sa akin. at madalas sa pakiramdam ko eh mas may kapangyarihan akong magdesisyon sa opisina kaysa mga taong mas mataas ang posisyon sa akin. bakit ganun? sa isang banda ay nakakataba ng puso pero kung lalaliman ko ang pag-iisip, hindi yata tama yun. ayoko na sa kagawaran ko. gusto ko na ng ibang trabaho o gawain sa kumpanyang kinalalagyan ko. bagama't wala akong problema sa schedule, sweldo at kasamahan ko sa opisina, hindi naman ako kuntento sa gawain ko. kumbaga sa bakal, kinakalawang na ang kakayahan ko. meron akong higit pang maaaring gawin para sa kumpanya at para na rin sa ikauunlad ng sarili ko pero hanggang ngayon, pakiramdam ko ay nasa "dead end" ako. kayang-kayang gawin ng isang estudyanteng nag-o-OJT ang trabaho sa departamento namin. siguro isang dahilan kung bakit minsan ay mas ok sa akin ang humarap sa mga problema sa kumpanya dahil sa gayon ay nakakapag-isip ako, nakakagawa ako ng sariling diskarte, at nakakapag-resolba ako ng suliranin sa anumang bagay na dumaratin sa opisina. kung sa pakiramdam ko ay mahalaga ako sa departamentong kinalalagyan ko, nararamdaman kong mas nagiging mahalaga ako sa panahon ng suliranin sa opisina. nakapagdedesisyon ako para sa lahat. kontrolado ko ang sitwasyon, ayon sa gusto kong puntahan ng mga pangyayari.

ang ilan sa kasamahan sa opisina ay di ko nakikitaan ng pag-asa. hindi na nga, nakakabuwisit pa. akala mo kung sinong magagaling pero pag may problema na, ni hindi makaharap nang maayos sa problema. ipapasa ang responsibilidad.

marami akong dapat gawin sa opisina. hindi pa ako pwedeng umabsent pag Miyerkules. hindi ako pwedeng magkasakit ng isang linggo at magpatay ng cellphone. ayokong maging tunog-arogante o mayabang pero minsan iniisip ko, ang yabang ko--- malaki ang pag-asa nila sa "trabaho" ko. isa pa, medyo hirap akong i-train ang bago kong kasamahan sa departamento. marahil nasanay ako sa diskarte nung dati kong kasama. siya kase, hindi ko na kailangan pang pakialaman ang trabaho niya. kanya yun at kung may aberya man sa sakop niyang trabaho, hindi niya rin ako inaabala. may sarili siyang diskarte para maayos ito. etong bago, malayu-layo pa sa dati. tiya-tiyagain ko na lang. kailangan eh.

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muli akong nakabalik sa Galleria Corporate Center, kung saan ako dating nagta-trabaho. pero sa pagkakataong ito, sinamahan ko lang si Ayah sa kaniyang job interview. inihabilin ko siya sa dati kong boss at hindi naman nawalan ng kabuluhan ang oras na ginugol ng bawat isa sa amin. habang kinakapanayam si ayah ng "big boss" ng kagawaran na kumukuha sa kanya, nakipagkwentuhan ako sa dati kong boss at sa pag-uusap namin ay halos puro updates sa buhay-buhay ang napag-usapan, gaya na rin ng inaasahan ko. pati mga plano sa hinaharap ay napag-usapan na rin at ang pinakapaborito kong bahagi marahil ng pagpunta kong iyon sa lugar ay ang alaala ng dati kong pinagdaanan. ilang taon na rin ba ang lumipas--- mahigit tatlong taon. wala na ang dating mga tao, kung meron man ay bilang na lang sa daliri. wala na ang payak na kaayusan ng tanggapan. wala na ang mga sandaling ngayon ay isa na lamang alaala. minsan naiisip ko, mabuti pa ang mga bata walang mabigat na isipin sa buhay kundi mag-enjoy sa mga bagay na dumarating lang sa kanya. tulad nitong nasa larawan -->

now you tell me

after blogging about hoping for a better quarter, i guess i'll be in a bigger dilemma. the canadian embassy replied to my paper updates and is asking me to have my medical exam not later than 2nd week of this month. funny thing is, they have suggested a clinic stating that "all pre-approved immigrants will be medically examined in __________ Medical Clinic located at _____________. To make your immigration application approval faster, we suggest you bring this letter to the physician as your VISA is now being prepared." huh? what luck? am i really that excited? i guess not. here's why: the letter told me that the longest time to process my application will be until June 2008 only then once i get my Canadian VISA, i only have until July 25 to leave this country. HUWAATTT??? What now? Ayah's relatives from Canada are supposed to come to Manila by 3rd week July. My family is supposed to come back here in Manila by last week of July. The big occasion is set on the 2nd week of August. Where am I? talk about LUCK. now tell me, is it good or bad luck? *sigh*

i need coffee.